Meltdowns and Morning Sickness

Week 11

So this week I’m noticing 2 things. My morning sickness is starting to go away, but not completely and my mood swings are out of control.

Depending on the day, my sickness will be extremely severe causing me to miss work, be late or just vomit in my car (in a bag) on the way to work. Or I won’t notice it at all and I will just have 1 coughing fit where I feel like I am going to throw up for about 2 min and that’s it! I hope this means it’s going to go away soon J

Now, my intense mood swings. These are terrible. Im going to blame it on pregnancy and hope I’m not just a raving b*tch normally. Monday I decided that I was really down and depressed about myself… not sure exactly why. But basically, I was throwing myself a little pitty party. It didn’t help that the seahawks lost, and how I REALLY don’t like sore winner… ya know, the people that even after you admit their team did well that they still rub it in. Yea that doesn’t help. But also that Im getting huge, my clothes don’t fit, im the biggest blimp in every picture, and on top of it, I’m sick and moody!!

I’m trying to calm down and embrace my size and its hard. Cole is doing a good job of trying to keep me sane and nicely point out when he thinks I may be being over dramatic or sensitive. Which seems to be a lot lately! Hopefully I can get this under control before I go on vacation here in a couple weeks with friends!

Cole and I just got back from a very quick trip to Oahu, Hawaii for our friend Mike’s wedding! The wedding was in Haleiwa which is on the north side of the island. It was so beautiful and the weather was perfect! No rain, not too much heat. It was just nice to enjoy being outside and not being uncomfortable J

We’re going back to Hawaii here in 3 weeks for our last vacation or what we like to call our babymoon. We’re going with our friend Scott, Lindsay, Jodi and Kevin and staying at my mom’s condo in Lihue, Kauai. It will be nice to see everyone, but also be in such a relaxing place. I love Kauai. Its my favorite island because there isn’t a lot of commotion and not as much commercial tourism as it seems like on other islands. Its very quiet but very green and beautiful! And since I’ve seen and done almost everything a tourist can do on the island, I can go there to purely relax and enjoy the weather(and the company of course)!

The first time I shouldn’t feel bad about my body in Hawaii.. but oddly… the feeling of insecurity doesn’t go away. Hopefully I will overcome it this trip J

updating... nothing much new

Still morning sick, and still regular sick.




I’ve been fighting off a cold the last couple weeks and I can’t wait to be rid of it! This last week was nice. Cole and I have been missing our little girl, our Vizsla, Taylor , and we got to dog sit her friend Nutmeg. Nutmeg is very similar to Taylor so it was really nice to have her around! They are about the same size and weight. Same energy and very similar personalities! Nutmeg and Brody cuddled for most of the day and played occasionally. It really made us miss our Taylor. We watched her from Wednesday to Sunday. It felt SOO short! So now we are definitely trying to see Taylor back as soon as possible.



So before I drown on about pregnancy, have to say GO SEAHAWKS!!! WOO HOO! On their amazing win this weekend against the Super Bowl defending champs the New Orleans Saints! It was a close game and a very exciting one was well. But the Seahawks made Seattle a very happy city on Saturday night! Hope they do well against the Chicago Bears this coming Sunday. Seahawks won the last time they played the bears, but you never know what will happen.



So my tummy has been tossing and turning all morning. I can’t wait till we at least know the sex so I can stop saying “it’s in there”. I don’t really know what to call it or s/he? First things first, boy or girl, the baby is going to need a seahawks onesie! I’m eyeing a few out now. It will be my first baby purchase!



Nothing new on the pregnancy front. Still waiting to hear back from the doctor about the biopsy results. We’re kind of just deciding that no new is good news for now. I have also been so hungry that im started to be disgusted with myself. My appetite has has actually gotten bigger, along with my body, if you can believe it! I’m eating everything in sight and as big as though as I should be 4 months along.. and not 2.5. It’s a little embarrassing. But I’ve decided, I’m just not going to be one of those girls that stays thin and then finally pops out at the end. Its just not me. I’m not going to look like I’m normal from the back either. Hopefully I can tone down the eating a little and have been much better about snacking on something healthy. But the quantities haven’t changed much yet.

The picture of the Bean

Heres our little tiffany bean, baby van gundy!

and the test results are in!

I am trying to be better about updating this than I was about the wedding. The wedding was just too much.. not to mention all the other weddings that were going on in the mean time. All were fun though!!

As a warning, this is a pregnancy blog so some things may seem a little “TMI” or “too much information”. But it is what it is and I’m not the first person to go through it. Or even blog about it for that matter. But, you may find out more than you wanted to know… and this is one of those entries.

So earlier this week, I received a phone call from my nurse notifying me that my pap smear had come back abnormal. Apparently, on a scale of normal to cancer, it was right in the middle. So my doctor told me that was considered good news. Needless to say, I immediately made the appointment, got off the phone, and cried a little at my desk…at work. Whoa there hormones!

After some research online and contacting my recently pregnant cousin in law, I started to feel a lot better. Seems to be pretty common and doesn’t usually effect the baby. (Whew!!!)) I had never had an abnormal pap and was of course terrified. Besides my immune system usually failing me, I usually have extremely typical symptoms of any cold, or virus. I’m just usually a textbook case. So when I heard I had an abnormal pap. I freeeeeaked! And I was kind of embarrassed. I didn’t know how it could happen cause I never had to look into it.

As it turns out, it could be a myriad of reasons! Pregnancy is one of them.

So my appointment was today, and the doctor and nurse were terrific about keeping me calm. It hurt, but not so bad I had to scream or anything. Just extreme awkwardness. Things are being moved around down there that don’t usually move around! They started with a colposcopy and she saw 2 areas that were a little abnormal and then proceeded with the biopsy. I’ll get the results here in a few days and can only hope its good news.

On a good note, all my blood tests came back negative! Yay!! No STD’s no HIV, (not that I was worried or anything), good hormone levels for baby, and I’m not a carrier of Cystic Fibrosis!

Next official appointment is planned for Jan 25th and I can’t wait to see how my little green olive is doing!

As for the morning sickness…. Oh yea.. she’s still there. Lingering around from wake up to noon and later sometimes. Even better, I managed to catch a cold, so on top of the nausea and mild vomiting, I have a fever, sore throat, running nose and a cough. See… this is what I meant by my constant failing immune system. So, as you can imagine, I’ve been a peach and my wonderful husband has been a saint. Only 3 more weeks and I’m out of this first trimester and I hope the MS ends!

Will the morning sickness please go away....

Another day, another revelation.




I’m still battling every morning with morning sickness. Its gotten worse, which is a good and bad thing. The reason its good, is it means the baby is doing well. The more symptoms you feel, the better. From what I’m reading. The bad thing, I’m miserable at work and only feel good when I’m sleeping or in the evenings.
Yesterday, I didn’t want to go to bed too early because I wanted to savor feeling normal. So, I’m trying remedies to make me feel better. The first one, ginger in hot water. It is actually helping a little. I don’t feel like I have to constantly be running to the bathroom to gag. But I still feel weak.
Hopefully im not a huge drag this weekend since we’ll be in Chicago!!!!

My mom said she never had any morning sickness, and I get to have it everyday. This is miserable! I can't wait till im out of my first trimester. I will feel better about a lot more things by that time!

and the blog name changes again...

So this blog has quickly turned from my wedding blog, to my newly wed blog to my pregnancy blog 




It’s still very early to be announcing this too much, but I would rather document my thoughts and changes now than later!



Sooo… if you didn’t know, I’m pregnant!! I’m currently a healthy 8 weeks and 3 days along. Not very far and of course, there’s the chance of miscarriage. But we are nonetheless excited and can’t wait to get to bring this little Van Gundy into the world!



Since I found out on Nov 29th that I got a big fat positive (BFP for those bumpers) on my home pregnancy test three times, I was pretty sure this was the real deal. I chest had started hurting really bad in the beginning of November and I was starting to be skeptical. So after I returned home for thanksgiving, it was the first thing I wanted to do is test.



The most common question we’ve had so far is “was it planned?” Which is a difficult question to answer, but to be frank… no. Our motto after marriage was “if it happens, it happens, and if it doesn’t, it doesn’t.” So we weren’t planning or trying, but we were doing much to avoid it either. We were both extremely excited for kids and were pretty happy when I came out of the bathroom and said “cole…. Can you please come here?” I took the test, the first thing in the morning and Cole didn’t know I had. So as he comes up the stairs, and sees me trying to hide a smile, he stops half way up the stairs and starts smiling too! He knew.



Then he says “is it s yes?” I was sooo giddy and happy but I had to contain it a little. My friend Courtney was over, in the living room. (we drove together from sacramento and we got in soo late that we insisted she stay at our place). So we had to decide, there and then if we were going to tell her. Of course, in my excitement, I did!! But we were also very skeptical. Since, at this point, I had only taken 1 test. So Cole went to the store and I took 2 more tests and they all came out positive.



No major symptoms except my chest being sensitive, until week 6 hit. I started having morning sickness and felt really unwell for 2 days. Then it lightened up and would only happen in the morning until around 10am. I was REALLY happy I wasn’t one of those “all day morning sickness” girls.



Well, now its Week 8. The approximate due date is August 8th 2011 and I am sick as a dog. It’s all day morning sickness now:(



We had our first appointment with our OB Dr Te, in Bellevue. She’s fantastic and we’re really happy with her! She was very nice and easy to talk to. We had our first ultrasound.. (I didn’t know until a few day before that the first ultrasound was transvaginal…glad I had some warning!)

10.2.10

So this wedding thing. Ya know, the planning that consumed my life for about a year?? Yes, I should finally mention it. I was waiting until I got some of my professional photos before I posted. I have them now!

Really, im sure everyone has seen the photos from me or on facebook, but I figured I should blog about how I remember it. (hopefully I can look back and re-read this when im older and reflect:) )

So, leading up to the day, lots of people say “it goes by so fast” “remember to take the time to take it all in” “its so fast you’ll barely remember it”. Maybe its because I had so much warning, but I did NOT feel like it went fast. It didn’t go slow either! It is easily, the happiest day in my life so far! I was up at 4:30am to 2am the next day, so that could ALSO be why it didn’t go “fast”. I was able to take in everything constantly. I let things happen and it was great.

Spending the night before, with my best friends and having “girl time” to leaving the bar Fado at 2am and getting a cream cheese hotdog in my wedding dress on the way back to the hotel was all AMAZING!

I really enjoyed having the time to see all my friends and family and everyone who flew out to be with us. Their traveling really showed us they cared and we were so blessed to have them near us as we make a lifelong commitment to each other. We learned in our engaged couples retreat, that although love in a component in marriage, its not the key point. The point is the commitment you are making to yourself, your new spouse and God. Knowing that before I said my vows, was very important to me.

There was so many smiling, laughter, chatter, bubbles, and fun that I couldn’t have asked for anything more! I didn’t have a problem with any of my vendors, everyone went above and beyond! There was nothing I was disappointed in. But of course, things happen and it makes the day interesting. 

Lastly, now that I’m married and truly confident in the decision I made in a spouse with Cole, people ask me “so how’s married life?”. I know what they are wanting to hear “same ‘ol, same ol!” or “great, how’s your life”. But to seriously answer that question, married life with Cole, is heaven. Everyday, I come home to him and he looks better and better than the day before! I feel so blissful and connected to him. I really thought that being engaged was enough and there is no way we could be any closer. That nothing would change from engaged life to married life. But it does! I’m his family legally and in the eyes of God now.

Okay, I understand not everyone may feel this way and may say I’m over dramatizing it. Or it’s the “honeymoon stage”. But, its so often nowadays that you see failing marriages and people hating each other so much they can’t look at each other after they got married. I just want to be grateful that I don’t have that and that right now, we’re happy!

Okay enough of that, and here are some pictures!

all Photos are from the AMAZING Azzura Photography!